Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now, sitting on God’s lap.
He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken.
I so wanted to be your little girl. I don’t quite understand what has happened.
I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.
I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings.
I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping. Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me. Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.
I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.
I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day. I hurt for you.
I couldn’t imagine why you were so unhappy. That same day, the most horrible thing happened.A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in.
I was so scared, I began screaming, but there was no sound.
I guess they had you all pinned down because you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never heard me. The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming, “Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me.” Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn’t anymore.
Then the monster started ripping my arm off. It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.
It didn’t stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.
Though I was in such complete pain, I realized I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me. I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy.
Now I couldn’t; all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.
I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.
No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine that terrible things they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn’t know the words you could understand. And soon no longer I had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising.
I was being carried by a huge angel into a big, beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone. The angel took me to God and set me on His lap. He said He loved me, and He was my Father.
Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, “Abortion.
I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels.” I don’t know what abortion is; I guess that’s the name of the monster. I’m writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.
I tried very hard to live.
I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn’t; the monster was too powerful It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn’t want to die. Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster. Mommy, I love you and I wouldn’t hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.
Please be careful.
Love, Your baby girl
pleas , stop abortion .
reblog from glue&magic
"its sweet when someone know every single detail about you. not because you constantly remain them , but because they pay attantion."
yippy , welcome july . heheh
beberapa planing buat JULY :
1. Melalui masa MOS dengan BAHAGIA SEJAHTERA hahahahaha
2. Jadi anak rajin pas SMA , *amin deh HAHAHA rada gayakin juga sih
3. Bisa ngejait baju sendiri , hahah bulan ini insyaallah aku mau les jait baju . doakan saya bisa amin :3 uda nggak sabar pengen modif baju :9
4. Belajar MASAK ! hahahaha ayo yang masuk SMA pinteran masak dikit lah ! huahahaha
5. Rajin belajar [wah rencana yang berat , tapi doain aja aku bisa membunuh para virus malas itu]
udahan ah 5 aja , itu yang penting buat bulan ini . yang lain mah nyusul aja . kayak rencana mau kemana atau kemana itu tulis aja di buku agenda :D
btw , agenda gadis 2010 uda keluar belum ? aku pengeeen :9 abisnya yang 2009 kan uda abis
oke doain rencana aku sukses tercapai yeaah :p
Kayaknya waktu cepet banget ya muternya , tiba-tiba aja aku uda mau masuk SMA
Kayaknya baru kemaren gitu aku masuk TK , terus SD ikut UAN , mos SMP dan tiba-tiba uda mau masuk SMA .
cepet banget .
semakin kita besar kayaknya makin banyak aja masalah yang kita hadepin , mulai dari masalah pribadi , masalah sama sahabat atau pacar , patah hati , jatuh cinta , aah banyak lah .
kadang tanpa aku sadari aku pengen balik kecil lagi , masa dimana kita nggak ada tangung jawab apapun , bisa bebas lakuin apa yang kita mau . main main main dan main :9
nggak ada patah hati , nggak ada asem manisnya jatuh cinta . nggak ada masalah persahabatan . masalah pelajaran atau kejar jadwal
rasanya masa kecil itu bahagia . kita ketawa , nangis , teriak , kita bisa lakuin apa yang kita pinginin
kadang aku tiba-tiba mikir , gimana aku di masa depan ntar ?
terus gimana orang-orang terdekatku ntar ? apa mereka masih sama kayak mereka sekarang ?
apa adekku masih mau main PS bareng lagi kayak sekrang ? atau apa dia masih mau main bandminton sama aku lagi ? jangan-jangan besok dia uda ngerasa semua mainan itu konyol .
apa aku masih bisa jalan bareng sama temen-teman aku , ngosip ini itu , nonton dvd bareng kayak sekarang ? atau jangan-jangan besok-besok mereka uda sibuk sama urusan masing-masing ?
aku nggak tau apa yang bakal terjadi ntar , yang jelas pasti perubahan .
kadang perubahan ngebuat aku takut , karena perubahan membuat sesuatu jadi berbeda . aku aneh ? lebay ? memang .
tapi jujur , sometimes i`m scared with growing up
ohya , aku lupa satu hal , yang aku takutkan dari tumbuh dewasa adalah kehilangan orang-orang disekitar kita yang biasanya slalu ada buat kita ,
bukan hal yang nggak mungkin dengan waktu yang berputar kita akan kehilangan orang-orang yang kita sayangi , kematian datang tanpa kita ketahui .
dulu aku juga nggak penah ngebayangin bakal kehilangan papa secepat itu , kelas 4 sd .
dan sejak itu aku sedikit takut dengan waktu yang berputar , aku takut kehilangan untuk sekali lagi .
barusan nggak segaja baca postingan yang a letter to you my HERO ! dan aku nggak nyangka aku mewek nangis gitu ----"
emang uda banyak banget korban yang nangis baca itu HAHAHA *ketawa setan* dulu pas aku buat juga sambil nangis , tapi tiap baca ulang aku nggak pernah nangis , baru sekarang .
okey itu dulu ya , geje nih lama-lama aku nya
bye
*lovekisshug
ghea safferina adany
i miss my childhood days
buat sahabat aku yang baik , cantik , dan ramaah bangeet
Kurnia Yasmin Nisa
aku bener-bener minta maaf buat yang tadi itu .
tadi awalnya cuman bercanda , dan nggak nyangka banget kamu yang kalem ples sabar gitu bisa nangis .
Aku sama si ayu nyeseel abis :(
tapi kamu uda maafin kan ? yayayayay ? *maksa nih aku*
cuman yah tetep aja aku ngerasa bersalah -----"
tadi bercandanya gg lucu ya ? HAHAHAHA , mungkin kita [baca: aku sama si ayu] terlalu usil , dan semoga yang tadi itu bisa buat kita jadi nggak terlalu usil lagi HEHEHE
tapi satu hal yang kamu harus tau , kita nyeseeel banget ngumpet segala tadi itu yang ujung-ujungnya buat kamu sebel hehehe
kita tetep sahabat kan ? hhe :)
itu si kurnia yang pakek baju item sama kalung warna orange :)
ini mah foto kemaren , huahahaha aku jeleeek bangeet ih kaya orang tolol -.-"
oke itu aja , ini khusus buat kurnia , maaf kalo aku nggak nunjukin apa masalahnya yang jelas hhe , intinya semua berawal dari keisengan aku sama si ayu
oke , aku harap nia bakal maafin aku amin muaah
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